Free mind#
They say we sometimes try to feed what is missing inside us
by looking for people who will complement us and validate us in areas where we
feel insecure and in doing so we sort of fail to realise that most things that
start with self,have to be dealt with by ourselves with deep introspection and acceptance. We
live in a society where we are all so busy trying to look important , be
acknowledged, be entrepreneurs, be cool
, don’t want to age , want to travel overseas, so that our peers may think we
are better and are making it , want to
impose our believes and religion on to others without consideration, more men
want to have kids but don’t want to get married,black women are pressurised to
look and sound more white than white women themselves ,then you have white
women who want to have black women’s bodies , we are in such a chaotic pleasing
state that we forget about checking in
with ourselves, our spiritual side and mostly giving love to ourselves . The
one thing I have come to appreciate about myself is that I am in a space where
I am learning to be more grateful and less critical of self and my life choices.
When someone says “Be grateful” , it sounds like the most
simple thing to do , but its not as its
actually easier to be negative and have nothing good to say about anybody ,
than being grateful and acknowledging the spirit guides presence daily . I had
an opportunity to meet two most artistic guys whom are so open minded it
literally blew my mind away. Free minded beings , who don’t label folks nor
distance themselves because of their weiredness ( ok confession: I reeeeally
have a thing for weired guys, it’s a bad habit of mine J) but back to my point , these
two free artistic minded men I met at our company conference reminded me of how
important it is to not loose side of
you, who you are and what you stand for, take Matthew for example very
intelligent ,reserved , nerd looking but very kind and respectful ( I think )
to other cultures and doesn’t even take
himself seriously , just having a conversation with this man reminded me of the fire I used to have , but somehow
died along the way because of all the things
that have happened in my life. Then you have Daniel a grafity artist who is so
talented , sweet , calm yet very smart , talking to him reminded me of how free
I used to be with my artistic side , never shy ‘d away from it at Tertiary but
embraced being different and was constantly pushing my writing abilities and
socialising to the fullest .
What happened to the free minded me? that’s the question I
asked myself after parting ways with Matthew and Daniel . The only answer that
came to mind was that I lost my inspiration of writing because I was trying so
hard to separate myself from thinking about love , nor feeling anything that
has to do with love , because in my crazy mind this is how I looked at things ,
:”if I am honest , open to the idea of love and friendships , then comes
attachment and the reality with all that is this: folks still lie , cheat and
disappoint, so whats the point “ . What I have come to realised now is that” love lives within me “, it doesn’t
matter how hurt in the past I was, or how rejected I felt when I fell in love
with someone who only cared about himself and money , or how crushed I was
about my little brother’s death , fact
is to love is a choice , to be grateful it’s a choice , to choose to let go its
a choice ( it might be hard but its good for the spirit) and to except the bad
and embrace the good means you moving forward with hope .
The free mind vs an open heart, everybody has a way in which
they deal with whatever challenge life presence but nobody is ever taught how to be happy , how to embrace good
change , how to really let go of your guard and trust , how to not be jealous if another person has achieved more
than you and are proud of it , on the other hand one may argue and say I have
been taught all of that because I come from a positive environment and what nots ( again it all depends on your
foundation , family and mentality ) . In my case it is a mixture of colours
that god keeps repainting and refining ,
so with that I will say that I had to learn not to hold on to pain ,
learn to be the best me I can be presently , learn to be enough as I am ,learn
how to except my guilt and
move on from it, learn how to listen to
someone who needs a friend even if it’s a stranger in a taxi, learn how to trust in my capabilities , learn to respect
God for the huge part he plays in my
life and growth as a being , learn to not put limitations onto myself but be
able to transition with all this change , learn to be patient with myself and my
weired side I don’t sometimes understand , but mostly I had to learn
how to love me again ,keeping in touch with my
mom & brother in spirit as that is
very important to me and there’s no shame in it.
Sometimes you may think you have nothing but only to find
out that you have everything you need and you are exactly where god wants you
to be , so my little piece of common sense is gods timing is always perfect
,don’t hold on too tight to the person you love because they still need room to breathe and find themselves and
figure out how to add to your happiness, truly enjoy the good moments because
when you’re really sad they will pop up
and you ll find yourself cracking up with laughter just because of those
memories .
As my grandfather would say :” expression is the best form
of healing , making mistakes and learning
from them “, my version is remixed a bit with my own experience i.e free your mind and heart and let love
flow with all its bliss and challenges
and see what happens…..
Love
Switdifferent
