Something new
It’s the new year and
contrary to popular believe I have no plan for this year, as plans change very
quickly ( God taught me that lesson many times and me being hard headed that
lesson took a long time to sink in!), seeing that I know better now , trust you
me I will do better( but I still have a dinky plan that is open to life’s
mishaps ) . Something new I realised late last year was the fact that I love
long drives , there’s so much to take in
from nature , the natural architecture of the mountains , the smell of clean
fresh air that’s just warming to the skin and finds itself internally as well ,
the ocean , oh my GOD !!, I fall in love every time when I am standing by the ocean , appreciating nature , feeling the waves air ,gods best
creation in my opinion, makes me feel at peace as if I am more connected to the
spirit guides somehow . Something new ,I
also realised was that I relate more better to folks who show their motions and
share more / are open about themselves
who they are as appose to cold folks whom I cannot figure out if they are
going south or west , as they can never open up about anything because they either
have serious trust issues or just don’t see the value of people in their lives.
They say if you truly want to know a person go on a road trip with them , and trust you
me my road trip to Durban was very interesting , eye opening and also forced me
to acknowledge that I really can be a stubborn ass cow sometimes ( it breaks my
heart to admit this but it’s the truth
unfortunately ) . Something new I
appreciated was that Matthew got us to
ride bicycles which was something I hadn’t done since I was 12 years old and I loved every minute of it , as it was
like my childlike moment replay, it’s also fair to say that Simon and Sebs had
an awesome time ( priceless to see ) .
Its so much fulfilling to share things and moments with friends as those moments will be the only thing to
hold on to when your journeys take different directions .
Something new , forcing myself to look at my faults , my
disillusion attachment with perfection and high expectations which no one can reach, it all sums up to me being
a control freak actually ( in short ) , but I have to say this road trip was
worth every moment as I totally loosened
up, from Simons crazy jokes and Sebs
easy going attitude , we made a great team there in Zulu land, even if it was just for a
minute . The curry food though is the one thing I will never try again , as
eating and drinking water, feeling like my mouth was on fire , not amaseballs, not pleasant at all!!, I know Sebs would agree with me on
that one .
Something new , I have never met a Zulu man who is kind and
welcoming like Vusi was to us , as to be honest not all but most Zulu guys have
no respect for women and when you’re an opinionated
woman its even worse , they are deep into their culture ways ( which to me
seems like an excuse for them to justify their weired actions, e.g polygamy for
one, I don’t get that but ohh well that’s a topic for another day) , back to my point Vusi is a beautiful spirit
as he has Ubuntu without trying too hard , which is something I don’t get to
experience a lot living in Jo’burg ( well you don’t even get to see nor speak
to your neighbours when you live in Jozi, its crazy how self focused everybody is ..) , so it was great to
experience that first hand, it was warming to my heart and I felt welcomed
.
Something new, being seriously irritated for the first time
with someone I always ….always joke and laugh with and not being able to escape him nor leave him because guess
what we were on a road trip together , so good or bad I had to stick it out and
work it out . Most priceless moment though was taking a walk with Matthew by
the beach where I also had my ahaah
moment , that is “you can be anywhere in
the world with whomever , but you can never run away from how you really
feel.., this shit just won’t go away until you deal with it, ( in my case which
is never as its kinda pointless…)” .
Something new , cheers to travelling more , trying new food
(not hot ones though ..!), having fun , getting older while still having my
swagger on point , having a positive mind set , reading more books and finishing the ones I started already ,
doing more yoga, thanking god daily,
being gugu gaga once in a while with my
friends babies/new borns on the way, being patient and more tolerable to the very
few close friends I have , lastly dreaming bigger, working hard and smart while
enjoying what this new year has in store for my beautiful spirit J.
Love
B,
