I have always been an
analytical person by nature but I realised that speaking my truth and not taking shit
advice from folks who know nothing about what is in my head works pretty well
for me. Love lives in strange places and sometimes it can present itself
unexpectedly ,not the way we want it or not even with the person we want, but
once it has avail itself you have two options , take everything in stride and
embrace it or you can shy away and make up an excuse about how the person is
not right for you, because they don’t fit in into the perfect image you have in
your head and how the timing is just off for you because your just too occupied
with your own plans.
When something feels forced you know it’s not right and when
something feels right your heart and mind will gravitate towards it , things
become easier , talking and opening up comes natural as nothing is pretence.
Doing what feels right for one self is hard and it shouldn’t be but I guess we
get caught up in expectations and insecurities that we lose side of what is
important in life and somehow rush ourselves into making stupid decisions that
we will later regret, for once think about what will happen if you put yourself
and needs first, figure out what makes you happy, what do you want out of life
, forget about what your friends are doing or how they are living , live your
own life , make your own rules then break them again its okay, all will still
be well with the world.
Respect for self and sticking to your values will never fail
you when it comes to dealing with barriers of any kind, I found myself
listening to old school jazzy music that is so comforting to the heart and
crying as I miss my loved ones soo much yet at the same time I don’t want to
loose myself in grief and in the past , but start a new page on my own with
gods guidance and embracing love in all of
my friendships ,learn to be a bit patient with myself but still moving
forward. Nothing is never guaranteed and I guess challenges will always be
there, thing is though if you are really doing what is best for you everything
does really fall into place. God has a weired sense of humour and throughout
this past three months i feel like his
been trying to change my mindset and attitude about love , life and self.
My ahah moment , feeling emotionally tiered and finally
listening to my body and just taking a
breather , excepting that I cannot rush
my way through healing from my brother’s death, I cannot pace myself with others
as I am off a different breed , I cannot rush my way through a relation with
any man nor can I make anybody happy until I give all that buddle of love and joy to myself first , just have a
celebration of me while building my relationship with god, as he has led me
through this road and he will stick with me till the end of it, all I have to
do is to be open to changing and learning more about myself and those who i
find interesting .
They say love is a choice , followed by a feeling you choose
to have for a specific person because of the characters you see and like in
them, I say love to love , go after what you think is ment for you even if you
don’t feel good enough , make others laugh as that’s healing ,maintain a balance between work and a personal life and just be
present as only time will tell, lastly
remember that love never goes out of style.
love
BrendaJ….
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