It’s amazing how the spirit guides work sometimes , you go to a place expecting to just have fun but find yourself being more closer to self and experiencing the most priceless feeling ever and more blessed spiritually. As the Irish Dub /Reggae artist preached out as the music was playing *don’t let the things that happen to you in life define you ,appreciate the life and the little things that you have * as simple as those words are they hit home for me as I was on the dance floor with my friend B. Then on the other hand you had the Admaral and Jahseed blessing us with some reggae beats which were on another level , felt like was in the some Rastafarian church getting some strong healing.

Baseline was on fire, like some serious spiritual fire , now I totally understand why Rastas don’t need alcohol to have fun or to just be happy. Showing love and giving  love never goes out of style and I truelly experienced that this past weekend.

Jah bless and more Fire….to living life according to your own standards, surrounding yourself with the people that  love  and appreciate you and to never taking anyone for granted!!!!

I know we could have had it all
I wasn’t ready to go steady no not at all
Smoke and mirrors clouded my vision we hit a wall
Couldn’t see the moon and the sky behind the fog
Pregnant pause
Damn your baby tall, what you been up to
I don’t blame you my doll
Yeah, we kinda stalled
As God as my witness, timin’ was my mistress
I guess it’s in the stars for me to love you from a distance
Uh, our ship sail, uh, the wind blows
The door’s always open but our window was closed
You always thought “What if?”
But that’ll just drive you crazy baby, girl interrupted
Thinkin’ ’bout what wasn’t
Thinkin’ ’bout what was it?
Was it somethin’ I done?
Somethin’ I could do better although nothin’ could be done
Sometimes you get what you need
Now what you think you want?
So baby no moon and sky, got a beautiful sun

@@Jigga aka JayZ

It’s bizarre how the simplest things hurt us , the craziest actions make us laugh for days , how the tough are actually the most fragile ones emotionally , how we mirror our progress by competing with others , how you meet that one person that just leaves a mark in your heart yet pretend like they don’t affect you in any way. It’s a childlike moment for me when I walk down Mandela bridge and start looking at the sky , I have never looked at the sky the way I am now . Life has not been kind but it has been a novel in some way , I think …,what will I tell my other half the day I meet him , will I be brutally honest , will he judge me , will I be insecure and put up my defences , will I be able to tell him that I don’t know what family love feels like  but I am yerning to find out with him, will I feel free to express and show him my emotions ,act crazy without being penalised. I ask all this questions still looking at the sky as if I am talking to god face to face , insane I must be, a thought crosses my mind but right now my concentration is deep in this conversation I am having with the sky , I try by all means to hold back my tears as I feel connected to something that’s beyond me and  right there I make my mini prayer.

I have never been formal when it comes to praying so I start off by apologising for my cursing as anybody who knows me, knows that I curse a lot , then continue with my so called prayer ..* god its me , still don’t know any better , still learning daily , still changing , still wanting more form life , still mad at you for taking my brother , still angry at myself for not trying harder with him, still don’t understand what the bigger plan is , still feel broken inside but asking  you to heal me, as you’re the only one who knows and understands , still need a lot of guidance and your presence in my life , I stand before you asking that you take this weight off my shoulders, give me strength to push forward and believe in your word more ,as ngiyintandane yakho and I don’t want to feel like this nor live like this anymore. I  wish I could say I am bitter but am not , am brused but not bitter , I am here god ,just in case you forgot about me ….I am saying to you I am here , still standing and waiting on you, Amen*.

I finish off my mini prayer as I am walking, still trying by all means to hold in my tears and avoid freaking strangers on the street as to why I am crying. I look up one more time but this time around giving thanks, for all the good and the fact that I am still alive ,wishing that she should have warned me that being human is not that easy and that everything that happens good or bad, all the charactors of pips one will meet good or bad…it forms part of life.

This coming weekend (June 16^th) let us remember those who walked before us, stood firm and took action in something because they have had enough of  being silenced and treated as if they are not human beings and part of society. As the youth of this country we fight  a different battle  today and are still faced with a lot of challenges , lets reflect on our History, take pride but not be stuck in the past but be in the present.

Hard work must still be the core value that is installed in our youth, education is the biggest battle that this country still faces, drug addiction is killing our young men, young girls having sex before time , aids sucking the life out of us and yet money seems to be more worshiped than god !!.At some point we have to guide our indeniel government  by taking pride in our lives and using the little that we have to improve ourselves , as every young person has a story to tell and every story can be used as a positive guide to those who feel hopeless. Lets not be an ignorant youth , lets stand for something , be it a personal battle your facing or not ….., lets not make everything about colour nor put each other in social boxes but  strive to do better in our lives daily.

Cheers to this youth month !!

Mista D's Music Blog: Mos Def : Mos Dub

Mista D's Music Blog: Mos Def : Mos Dub

WORD & SOUND  POETRY GIG AT EMONTI -NEWTOWN(02 JUNE 2012)