I pulled my heart out of my chest
I pulled my heart out of my chest , as I uncontrollably gave
my heart away to a spirit who gave his
heart and full being to another spirit, I pulled my heart out of
my chest as my efforts seemed pointless , my love never felt strong enough to rebuild what has been broken
, my sacred place ….the place I had in his heart had been tarnished and
brutally smashed by the harsh realities of life , love and misleading
words . I pulled my heart out of my chest as I watched the love of my life doubt
his feelings for me.
I pulled my heart out of my chest as yet again I am at war with time and past
hurts I cannot wipe clean, the promises made never kept ,the feeling unworthy ,
the fear that breathes within one’s mentality, the misinterpretation of words
that never seem to come out right, the emotional connection that distance only
strengthens , I pulled my heart out of my chest
as I repeatedly replay how
different things could have been had I knew
you first , kissed you first, indulged first ,giggled with you first , planned
with you first , I pulled my heart out of my chest as the pain overpowers my
body and I loose site of the
present .
I pulled my heart out of my chest, as I am searching for
tears within my broken hope and wishful thinking, I knew , from the first time
we met, I knew but shied away from the love connection ,damn how I was on some
high…, I pulled my heart out of my chest as
I realise that being in love and showing love are two different things , that
compromise is always the glue and
mistakes should be forgiven . I pulled my heart out of my chest as I lost sight of
you.
I pulled my heart out of my chest ,as it dawned on me that you cannot always have
what you want but sometimes it’s good to
have what you need even if it doesn’t make any logical sense to the heart.
I pulled my heart out of my chest as I realised that I was just an experience to you.
I ll put the pieces of my heart back together as I finally got an answer to my childlike bittersweet fairy tale love story.
Word
Brenda.
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